caring takes too much energy these days....

i'm in a funk....



i don't want to do anything....



no shopping...



no decorating......



no religious services.......



but i'll suck it up and do what's required of me....



cuz that's what women do......



and no one will even ask if there is something wrong......



cuz they don't even look at my face anymore......



or they'd see the tear-stained, swollen eyes........



or that the twinkle is missing.....



but they're too busy with their lives to realize....



that i'm not living anymore.....





back eventually.....

8 comments:

  1. i just went through this funk. i'm sorry! things always get better.. :) thinking of you.

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  2. I care and want to know what's wrong!!

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  3. Ugh--I know this feeling. Sending hugs and prayers your way, sweet sister.

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  4. i think it's interesting that these 3 comments are from a kristen, a kristina, and a kristi......

    you guys are sweet...it's just a bunch of ungrateful family members who probably don't even know how hurtful they are being and i'm probably being overly sensitive...

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  5. Hoping things are already better, or at least on the way toward mending.

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  6. Ah, I totally relate to the ungrateful family members.
    Be true to you. I recommend NOT doing what is required of you (unless it involves feeding children, please do that). Being completely true to your own feelings somehow elevates us physically, emotionally and mentally.
    And I want to know how it is that the people closest to us don't recognize that twinkle in our eyes is gone? Maybe they do but they ignore it?
    Big hugs to you!

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  7. I haven't been here in a while. I'm sorry you were having a time like this. I've been there and have had all those feelings. It sucks. I hope you aren't feeling like this anymore. Take care and go find that twinkle if you can. All the best - C.

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  8. I haven't been here in a while. I'm sorry you were having a rough time of it. I have been there and have had all of these feelings. It sucks. I hope you are feeling better and have found that twinkle that you have. all the best. -C

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